Posted By Brad Rowe on August 16, 2019
What is your why? Why do you compete? Why do you enjoy not living a "normal" life being able to be social, eat whatever you desire, have drinks with friends?
My why..... it's a bit complicated but I have always had a drive to be great and to be different. Being "normal" in my mind is a slow miserable death. I could care less about the attention or accolades. It's an inner drive that always pushed me as an athlete, as a student, and in the business world.
I have spent the last 9 months living to my normal standards a very "normal" life. My version of normal is still as strict as 98% of the worlds population. But I have not tried to make progress in one direction or another. Not having a goal with my body has been better for my marriage and been more social with friends but on a personal level I have been unhappy.
I sit here right now still in limbo on where I want to take things. I could continue on my current path and look great year round and have a much healthier and more balanced life. But also kill off a bit of my inner desires. I actually love the suffering of prep. I think about how very few people are willing to put themselves through the process. I also take pride in the fact that I embrace it and am extremely productive through out the process. A lot of people back off their work load and don't take care of things in their life. I actually try to load more on my plate.
My why has always been to be as close to superhuman as possible on all levels in life. I could continue down this cushy path and still in everyone's eyes be the same superhuman and be a better husband or friend. Or I could challenge myself with continuing to compete and balance life the best I can as I have done in the past and fulfill that crazy inner voice in my head that has gotten me to where I am in life.